"You know you're fat, you're fat, you know it"

The Weird Al song mocking Michael Jackson’s “Bad” keeps resonating in my head. You know the one, “You know your fat, you’re fat, you know it, whew!” My gluten free diet is way off track and is making me feel terrible and gain some weight back, especially in the gut. This is hindering my ability to skate as well. Why is diet so hard? Why can’t I do what I know is good for me? Why can’t I just be good and eat right and get plenty of exercise and sleep? Self control. That is the key, something I really need to develop more of. I just can’t help myself when I see a box of cookies or a bag of chips sitting there. It feels as though they’re talking to me, telling me that if I just have a little it will be okay. That is where the downfall begins. I have a little, then a little more, then a little more and before I know it a whole sleeve of Oreo’s has been downed along with a half gallon of milk. Man I love Oreo’s. It is so hard to stay away from those things. And then there’s the chocolate covered Oreo’s! OH SO GOOD! Oh man, I have got to stop doing that to myself. Shake it off, you don’t need it. Okay, so I just need to develop more self control. Then I will be leaner (90% fat instead of 99% anyway) and I will be able to skate a little easier. It might even make my balance better. All I know is that I want to do whatever it takes to be able to skate better. To be able to progress and not feel like the Stay Puffed Marshmallow Man on wheels. I can do this. I can lose 10 pounds by end of April then 10 more by the end of August. I can do it. I just need to eat right and skate as much as possible. So that is what I will do. Eat right, exercise and skate. What could be better anyway?